Not so black and gay

today, i've been off my meds for two days and i went crazy. it's so weird, i was just tired of feeling sleepy. the med work but they make me so damn tired. i think i might go back to the mental hospital. i've only been out a week and i've threatened like five ppl. sometimes i don't get why i am so damn crazy. and my weight is dropping. i haven't eaten in like four days. but i've been drinking. sometimes i don't get this, but i know i have power in this.